Ups and Downs!

My conscious tells me: you’re freak! I can’t believe it, I mess it up!

The whole thing was not as expected. I thought everything was perfect and I am smart and lucky, but it all comes up down suddenly. I don’t know how to start and I don’t even want to say what happened in particular, I just want to express my frustration, disappointment and hard luck (if I may say so).

I can feel much better now, i least i can laugh from my heart and I am grateful for that. My mother is always by my side and I discover everyday how terrified my life will be if I am not with mom. I wish mom would never leave me alone, I deeply need her in every single moment, whether in happy or tough moments. It seems hard that I cannot tell her everything about my feelings when she stood by my side, I love you Mom.